Unreachable

• Unreachable©
  
  
  The day was dipped into black tonight.
  The moon is glowing harsh at the outside.
  
  Looking upon at this white shining sphere.
  Bright lights are blinding me,
  although it is so far from here.
  
  Like a compulsion i would like to touch this ray,
  i can feel the charming warmth
  which makes me satisfied this way.
  
  However...
  
  All trials i make to come near them
  are still desperate.
  
  Everything i initiate to change
  remains inveterate.
  
  All doings of mine have no meaning any longer.
  To go for it is senseless,
  emptiness is getting stronger.
  
  Where is the way to get up there?
  Show me the path to your sphere!
  Tell me the price, i do not care!
  But take it out, take out my fear!
  
  Do you see my world,
  my everyday life?
  You wont need a word,
  to get me satisfied!
  
  I still look up.
  Is it a risk or my salvation?
  It pulls me in the ban,
  my new life's affirmation.
  
  Believing i could reach this garish source.
  I stretch my arm towards it to call it mine.
  And i feel a strength which give me force
  and makes me weak at the same time.
  
  However...
  
  Why does it seem so near to me? It remains desperate.
  Why can it not be touched? Things will be unchanged.
  Why is this orb not reachable? There is no meaning any longer.
  Although i need it so much...Emptiness is getting stronger.
  
  Do you see my world,
  my everyday life?
  You wont need a word,
  to get me satisfied!
  
  Even if it seems so near,
  now i know that it will be
  not reachable for me!